-sweet.sadness]]

came and gone

2008-06-25T01:35:00.001+08:00

hi people, i have shifted.
(: this will be my last post

bye!

loves, mo

"for by Thy grace and by Thy mercy, i have been saved"

you're comfort and shelter

2008-06-20T22:24:00.003+08:00

mo the emo came to visit just now.
but's she's gone now (:
sermon was good.
ian preached about heaven and hell (:
just a not so in-depth touch on though.
still, it was good ((:

my heart is set.
my priorities are set.
my mind is set.
my soul is set.
i'm all set.
to follow You.
no one else before you.
Oh Lord, don't let me stray.
keep me close.
guide me to the path you've laid before me.
prepare my heart for all that's impending.
for i was crushed and far from You.
and yet You came with loving arms to pick me up.
i'll follow You.
from now and till forever.
from here to the ends of the earth.
i will follow You.

Shout to the Lord
My Jesus, my Savior,
Lord, there is none like You;
All of my days I want to praise
the wonders of Your mighty love.

My comfort, my shelter,
tower of refuge and strength;
Let ev'ry breath, all that I am,
never cease to worship You.

(Chorus)
Shout to the Lord, all the earth, let us sing
Power and Majesty, praise to the King;
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name.

I sing for joy at the work of your hands,
Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You.

(repeat)

Shout to the Lord, all the earth, let us sing
Power and Majesty, praise to the King;
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name.
I sing for joy at the work of your hands,
Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You.

realise

2008-06-20T14:31:00.004+08:00

i guess some promises and things said do hold void after 2 months.

not every thing is said.
not every thing has to be said.
not every thing is showed.
not every thing has to be showed.
you were not my every thing.
but you were my everything.
were.
no more.

mo is listening to "Realise"

Take time to realize
That your warmth is
Crashing down on me
Take time to realize
That I am on your side
Well didn't I, didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now

Take time to realize
Oh oh, I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you
Take time to realize
This could all pass you by
Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, but

It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it too
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way
It could be the same for you

If you just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other

Just realize
What I just realized
That we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize
What I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
If we missed out on each other, now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now owa, owa ohh
Realize
Realize
Realize
Realize
uh-ohhh

stop and shop

2008-06-17T21:21:00.003+08:00

whooo!
i didn't study much again today!
hahaha. XP went to plaza sing after having breaky with sak and after know that
HISTORY LECTURE HAD BEEN CANCELLED.
HAHA!
anyways, we were suppose to look for her bible at trumpet praise but turned out that they didn't have the one she wants.
so i got her a journal from trumpet praise instead.
it's a really pretty journal with a violin and words saying "amazing grace..." on the front page (:
got myself Left Behind 1, 2 and 3!
XD happiness!
teehee.
ooh!! bei was really sweet too.
got me a bookmark (x
it says -

i asked Jesus
"how much do You love me?"
"this much"
He answered and He stretched out His arms and died.

so sad and sweet right!
well, i cried )x
hahas. love the bookmark!

How Great is our God! =D

loves Jesus! (:

mo is waiting (:

ooh. i got a prayer journal too! *shushsss!*

And he sath unto me, Write
-Revelation 21:5

but not expecting

loves, mo (:

discipline

2008-06-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

pray for strength mo, pray.

just feeling sucky.

2008-06-16T22:34:00.003+08:00

you know what?
looking back to the past three weeks i realised i have really done nothing much at all.
don't have the misconception that when i said that i'm out to study i really studied a lot -.-
out of the 10 hours mo claims to study,
8 are for slacking and talking and procrastinating.
1 for the loo for i always go to the toilet multiple times.
and the other one for actual studying.
how sad can this me.
i'm quite ready to flunk prelims again.

i will sing Hallelujah

2008-06-16T02:11:00.003+08:00

irritating.

i will believe in Jesus' name with all my heart, soul and mind.
because i know he is the way, the truth and the light.
i've been wrong many times.
i'm a sinful man often.
but God asked me- mo, why was Jesus crucified?
then i understood.
because Jesus loves me.
so much so that God gave His only Son,
Jesus to be our sacrificial Lamb.
it is because Jesus loves me so much that i'm saved.
and for all my doubts that often harbored.
they shall be gone.
they are gone.
because it's true. Jesus had forgiven me long ago.
all of my sins.
and He loves me. very much.
though we're on this battlefield with sins and the devil everyday.
know and trust in the Lord. Jesus is always there. just waiting for you to call out and upon His Name,
my God will come and save.
because He already had (:

tears of joy!

2008-06-14T00:05:00.013+08:00

have you ever realised that the skies are ever-changing?
nothing ever stays the same for today and for tomorrow.
just like friends who come and go.
but i know, like the sun, my Father in Heaven is always only the faithful one.
never-changing in His love.
Always there. for me.

(:

WHOOO!!!
going to zoo with YF tomorrow!
cikalakapiahpiah! cikalakapiahpiah!
lalalas~ i'm super excited!!
i've not been to the zoos for CENTURIES!
hahas. that's exaggerated alright =p
what's more!
it's my first trip out with YF!
WHEE~ can't wait! =DD

went to alvin's church again with bei (:
it's an amazing night.
not only because sermon was good.
but because i could really see God working through so many many children of God! =D
the most beautiful part is this,
bei is almost ready to receive Christ as her Lord and Saviour!
[don't be afraid! don't hold back! isaiah 40:10 digest for awhile more and you'd have realise that God has already open the eyes of your heart!]
=DD Praise God!! Hallelujah!
i can't wait to share more and more with her! =D
GOD loves loves loves you!! :D
i love you too! XD

"Your love is amazing, steady and unchanging
Your love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet
Your love is a mystery, how You gently lift me
When I am surrounded, Your love carries me"

can't wait for our Father in Heaven to do more extraordinary and mighty work amongst us! =DD

"Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing"

i want to just sing and praise God all night long! WHEE~

"Your love is surprising, I can feel it rising
All the joy that's growing deep inside of me
Every time I see You, all Your goodness shines through
And I can feel this God song, rising up in me"

okay, enough for today.

yesterday went for breakfast with mummy and daddy in the morning (:
then went home to rest for awhile before going for a short morning run
yes, mo is running more and more nowadays because she thinks she's growing fatter -.-
hahaha! anyway! i felt really satisfied after the run though it was really short! ((:
when out with mei and mummy, met daddy at Raffles City so we can lunch together!
had our usual Sushi Tei! XD yumyum~
teehee.
went shopping after that(:
didn't shop much, mood wasn't there =x
haha. shan't tell you what i bought =p
but i can tell you i'm really happy with my new swimsuit and watch!
=D i love my new watch!
it's SUPER pretty and has vibrating alarm function!
hahha. damn cool damn cool.
though, it might not be as cool as someone's *ahem*

okay, it's not clear.
but heck! i love my watch! hee.
okay, as you not know,
this is my first watch after, say, 6 years of not wearing a watch?
hahaha, still not very used to it.
always forget to wear it too. haha.

anyway! met cheryl at 6-tish. (:
miss her sooo much luh!
we were suppose to go over to Kath's chalet to drink
but had to head home early,
otherwise my cousin might be stranded outside home!
so we forsake the liquor there.
oh! anyway, i met alot of my innova juniors there too.
hahaha.
namely, seet, nash, benedict and fyn.
lol. unexpected!
anyway, we left early and cabbed to the 7-11 near my house from ns hometeam chalet
hahha. had maggi mee in 7-11. eating and standing!
haha! once in a lifetime experience!
lucky the company was awesome! [my super hon la]
cos the maggi we chose sucked ):
hahhas!
after that we bought a mini bottle of martell and a big bag of chips before heading home (:
well, darnk and played games with bei too. haas!
fun and not very high. but FUN.

comparison (: cheryl the tomato

SEE! i wasn't the last one to finish it okay! XP

that's how we slept! hehe.

okay, this is very bad for my health.
i've gotta stop.
all the late nights and drinking. HAHA!

cheryl darling! you're getting too skinny!
no good no good!
i'll be praying for you!
see the doc soon okay!
i love you hon!

took photos of my precious winter!
she's grown but not much! jiayou grow up my baobei! =D

woke up duper early the day before too!
join mummy and daddy for dinner too (:
WAH. i see many innovians mugging like siao at civic starbucks too!
DIES.
studied. but slacked more.

plans for tomorrow! (:
-QLC
-zoo
-dinner wit mosy
-study with bei at t2 SB! =D

today's still the awesomest! =D
for our God is an awesome God!
"amazing grace how sweet the sound"

greatest works.
greatest miracles.
greatest God!

=D

loves, mo(:
tears of joy

Complete and made perfect in You

2008-06-10T02:15:00.003+08:00

watched Left Behind 1 and 2.
it reveals much.
not as much as the Bible of course!
but enough.
enough to make me cry.
as how weak the human flesh is.
how easily is the human mind manipulated.
how much how much we need to rely on Someone.
and that Person, is our Messiah.
Jesus Christ.
how much did God teach me?
i can't count.
cause He's been teaching me and preparing me since before i knew it.
even right now.
i know, and i believe, and God is working in me and you in a very special way that is exclusively in us only.
i love my God!
=D

new song i wanna share too!

Complete by parachute band

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
And I will be complete in You.

Here I am, Oh God
I bring this sacrifice--my open heart.
I offer up my life.
I look to You, Lord.
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
And by faith, I will walk on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day,
And I will be complete in..

I look to You, Lord
Your love that never ends
Restores me again

So I lift my eyes to you Lord
In your strength will I break through Lord
Touch me now, let your love fall down on me
I know your love dispels all my fears.

Through the storm I will hold on Lord
And I pray I will hold on, Lord
Then I'll see beyond my calvary one day
And I will be complete in
I will be complete in
I will be complete in You

i wonder what Heaven is like.
can we just sing praises to the Lord all day and night?
with no books to bury my face
and expectations that rob my tears?

i believe it will be a place of bliss.
a point of time where i'm made complete in God.
i believe all human flaws would disintegrate the very moment we rapture.
cos Heaven is perfect, why should we ever desire for more?
i believe that all that see the Father as their Saviour
would be risen to Heaven.

a place full of smiles
a place filled with laughter
a place where happiness never cease
a place where love is abundant
a place where melody fills the sweet-scented air.

are you ready to accept Christ as your Saviour?

i know i already have.
i'd love to meet you in Heaven too (:

let us be the glorifiers of Your Holy Name
for Glory is Yours alone.

in Him alone

2008-06-10T00:03:00.005+08:00

cause sometimes, all you really need to do,
is to listen.

"i'm forgiven~"

you're forgiven

thank You,
i'll rejoice evermore

can't wait to go to the zoo with YF this coming saturday! =D

i'm waiting for something

loves, mo

eyes on You

2008-06-09T04:28:00.002+08:00

it's really time for us to get our eyes off other Christians and keep them on the Lord!

"When i look at others i'm disappointed; when i look at myself i'm disgusted. When i look at Jesus i am satisfied!"
=D

Hallelujah

Jesus is the One, worthy of all our praises!

for i am-only human

2008-06-08T17:08:00.006+08:00

Just added a new song!
didn't load the full song though,
uploaded the cut version.
hahahs.
this song is from the show -
one litre of tears
it's a real tear-jerker.
cried more than buckets.
it's a DAMN good show nevertheless,
and you should not miss it!
it's also adapted from a true story
and thus that makes it all the more,
worth your time watching (:
go catch it yeah?
the theme song is as good as a show i feel!
hehe.
it really brings out the sadness of the show.
seriously, just go catch it.
not the movie huh!
the serial!
i have both and i can tell you the serial is definitely worth your time more if you plan to save time by watching the shorter version which is the movie. hahahs

Only Human

哀しみの向こう岸に　微笑みがあるというよ
たどり着くその先には　何が僕らを待ってる？

逃げるためじゃなく　夢追うために
旅に出たはずさ　遠い夏のあの日

明日さえ見えたなら　ため息もないけど
流れに逆らう舟のように
今は　前へ　進め

苦しみの尽きた場所に　幸せが待つというよ
僕はまだ探している　季節はずれの向日葵

こぶし握りしめ　朝日を待てば
赤い爪あとに　涙　キラリ　落ちる

孤独にも慣れたなら　月明かり頼りに
羽根なき翼で飛び立とう
もっと　前へ　進め

雨雲が切れたなら　濡れた道　かがやく
闇だけが教えてくれる
強い　強い　光
強く　前へ　進め

Only Human

Lyrics: Osanai Mai Translation: Jonathan Wu

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile

On the opposite coast of sadness
is something called a smile
But before we can go there,
is there something we’re waiting for?

In order to chase our dreams, we can’t have a reason to run away
We’ve got to go, to that far away summer’s day

If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on

In a place worn down by sadness
something called a miracle, is waiting
Yet we are still searching
for the sunflower that grows at the end of spring

The warrior who awaits the morning light
before he can clasp it with red nails, his tears glitter and fall

Even if we’ve grown used to loneliness
only relying on the light of the moon
We have to fly away with featherless wing
just go foward, just a little further

As the rainclouds break
the wet streets sparkling
Although it brings only darkness
A powerful, powerful light
helps push us to walk on

little sweet thoughts
little sweet reminders.
memories of you.
~~me and you~~

loves, mo

rest in His Love

2008-06-07T23:25:00.001+08:00

come Jesus come.
come make my heart Your home.
come fill me with love.
let me lift my eyes to the hills
where salvation is found.
let me cry to the stars
where comfort is near.
let me lie on the pastures
where Your presence is strong.
take my life Lord.
that it can be made whole in You.
and only You.
make me one that pleases You, Father.
make me follow You like a child,
dear Shepherd.
let my whole being and life live for You,
my God.
Holy is Your name Father.
Hallelujah.

let us be the glorifier of our Father's glorious name!
Father, i pray that you'd just make our hearts bigger, make our souls enlarged, and our minds wider!
such that we can love You more.
as much as You deserve and as much as You want us to love You Lord!
for we do not love You enough.
teach us.
yes, open our hearts up to You.
to love You.

just a sudden urge of sadness that welled up within me

gifts(:

2008-06-05T22:04:00.022+08:00

ok, let's begin with my birthday! (:
happy biggie 18 to myself!
teehee.
alright, i shant hold back.

several days before my parents and sis flew off,
went for high tea at Goodwood park (:
let the pictures do some talking (:

i thought it looked good
but they don't reckon so!

had swensen's before my parents and sis left too (:

okay, this is random,
taken when we were going to send them off (:

cheryl and daddy came over to celebrate the night before! =D
heheh. photos photos!

they got me coffeebean cheesecake and tiramisu!
we got daddy two choc cake!
hahah.. no one celebrated daddy's birthday so we celebrated together.
teehee.
got daddy a baby brush and a card. haas (x
hope he liked it! ((:

my big day!
jang jang jang jang!
let's put it really frankly,
i was really upset when i found that my bro was going to spend the countdown night with david as he was going to africa soon.
so i was like, oh well...
but guess what?
i got a surprise!
ahahha.
Alvin came at midnight.
okay, he didn't come over.
techinically, it was me who went over to the playground.
hahha. he lighted up "happy birthday"
with candles!
ahhaha.
he gave me a RED! zipper bag that says "Michelle love(s) Jesus"
i was really touched. (:
thanks dude.
i don't want to realise- what's over and what's not
those heartbreaking empty-promises
[okay, i'm narrating it in a really boring way because i'm really so tired mentally]
then! had GP paper the next day.
PLEASE! it's freaking difficult!!
ARRGGH!
anyway, kim, joy and i went for pastamania after that (:
had a jolly good lunch after we whined about our papers.
hahas. (:
then they came over as i had tuition.
love them!
so glad they insisted on keep me company!! =D
had tuition and they slept.
woke them after tuition ended.
told them we had to go for dinner already as it was really really LATE!
so we went down and kor was watching tv.
that was when Joy got hooked to the Arena,
BECAUSE! Nicholas had dazzled her into the stars by then.
THEN THEN THEN!
they all surprised me with Cheryl and bei's appearance!
ok, i knew bei was coming but Cheryl was totally unexpected.
hahah. then hey handed me my pressie.
HAPPY!!
=D hahha, unexpected x 2!
hahahah.
my YP-P2! teehee.
well i decided not to delve into details anymore.
it's boring myself out even.
ahhahas,
okok. we went buckaroos for supper.
all had mushroom soup and yummilicious baffalo wings!
whooo!
hahah.

this was what they got me.
wanted a white one but it's out of stock
but nevertheless! thank you to the numerous people! =D
HAPPY LIKE SIAO! hehehheeh.
hehe. yes yes, to my very special people,
i won't forget your cards =p
mummy and daddy called to wish me happy birthday too (:

hahahs. anyway,
whilst they were away,
i studied okay!
as much as i could though. teehee.
gotta buck up seriously!
and i forgot when to do my SGC,
so i didn't do it anyways, =p
cheryl stayed over once
[sorry for waking you up early in the morning! =x
i love you hon!! =D]
bei stayed over for a gazillion times (:
well, was in starvation too
hahah!
kept going cikalapiahpiah! teehee!

stuff me and bei did over the weeks. =p

@ Han's near my place (:

WE STUDIED OK! =P

@ Civic centre's Starbucks (:

bei stayed over yesterday.
hahah! we hardly slept!
only slept at 745am after i went crazy cause i hit passed my threshold.
heheh. kept singing crazily and talking loudly.
hee. love nights with you my lovely!
hee. hugs to you XP

hahahs. parents and sis came back today!
hahah. finally had something nice and together (:
when to east coast for wanton mee.
it's good stuff the wanton mee there i tell you.
YEP! =p
ooh. they kept lying to us that they just got us a shirt each. ahhaha
this was the shirt they were referring to: [lol]

hahha. here comes the present proper! =D
love them loads seriously!

yep, it's LV's limited edition! =D

my favourite choc of them all! =D

just one minute with it

another 10 and POOOOF! teehee!!

gladiators they bought me (:

and shoes i bought myself(:

thank God for bringing them back safely! =D

well, all those gifts.
Gifts.
the bring me back to basics
thinking of all the wonderful
and even more beauteous gifts God had given to us (:
God blessed me with many.
like my family, my beloved smiles, happiness, friends, and many many more.
what about you? (:
i'm sure God has blessed you with numerous gifts at this very moment too.
remember! God loves you thus endowing you with all your gifts!!

loves, mo(:

`hugs and kisses to my fabulous family! =D
`Father! Thank You! i love You!! =D

hit me. with you

2008-06-05T06:07:00.002+08:00

at times, i just really wanna believe that they were all true.

(:

2008-06-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

just chanced upon this song (:

Lover's concerto

How gentle is the rain
That falls softly on the meadow
Birds high up in the trees
Serenade the clouds with their melody
Oh! See there beyond the hills
The bright colors of the rainbow
Some magic from above
Made this day for us
Just to fall in love
You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful
Now, I belong to you
From this day until forever
Just love me tenderly
And I'll give to you
Every part of me
Oh! Don't ever make me cry
Through long lonely nights without love
Be always true to me
Keep this day in your heart eternally
You hold me in your arms
And say once again you love me
And if your love is true
Everything will be just as wonderful

The King

2008-06-02T12:39:00.003+08:00

HILLSONG UNITED lyrics

Hallelujah!

i love You Jesus!
and this i will say it loud and say it proud!
=D

cos our God is an AWESOME GOD!

2008-05-31T05:17:00.002+08:00

i'll update my blog about my birthday soon!! =D
hehe.
many thanks that needs to be done, and they can't be done now for the time constraint.

Forever

Praise the Lord.
Let us all gather to worship The Greatest Love and The Merciful Giver that is forever Faithful.
Let's all hold and cling tightly to our old rugged Cross for it has set us free.
Let's Love one another, for it's the greatest Gift our Father has given us in our entire lives.
you, yes, you. Jesus Loves you.

"Jesus loves me this I know.
For the Bible tells me so.
Little ones to Him belong,
we are weak but He is strong.....
Yes, Jesus loves me...
The Bible tells me so."

i've got a short story to share tonight! but it is rather.. eh.. macabre? nightmarish? you decide. lols!

`have you ever dance in the pouring rain, alone ?

2008-05-30T16:17:00.002+08:00

18 soon!

2008-05-21T22:49:00.002+08:00

would update soon.
parents and sis leaving soon too.

would you be here?

just 5 more days!! (:

Praise God!
Love Him!! =D

The Stand

HMD! (:

2008-05-11T23:55:00.003+08:00

wooh!
i'm happy! =D
just bought a new book
Daybreak with God
=D and Chun Kit just called me just now to tell me that my other book has arrived in church!
=D ROCKS! hehe
the other book is Discipline
yep.
today rocks.
see what i bought for mummy,
i mean the family and i(:

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
to all (:

loves, mo

carry me

2008-05-08T21:10:00.001+08:00

You lead me in to Your courts
Surround me with Your love
I walk with You
I do not fear

In this place
Dreams are made
In this place
Where You are
Carry me here
In Your arms of love
Draw me close to You
I want to be where You are
I want to be where You are

You carry me, You are my strength
I've learnt to trust in You
And once again
I'm reaching out

His Highest

2008-05-08T20:32:00.004+08:00

i will rejoice for each day is brand new
i will rejoice for every breath i take
i will rejoice for every smile
i will rejoice for every opportunity
i will rejoice for everyone
i will rejoice for everyday
i will rejoice for every moment
i will rejoice for each passing remark
i will rejoice for all obstacles
i will rejoice for all that comes my way
i will rejoice because God came into my life!
i will rejoice because every moment is Godsent(:
i will rejoice because Jesus loves me!=D

Psalm 118:24 says - "This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice
and be glad in it."

Holy, Holy, is the Lord

Hallelujah

in the name of Jesus
every heart will make every blind man see
in the name of Jesus
every chain will break every captured free
Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy
-in the name of Jesus

please pray that this sunday evangelistic service specially catered for mummies, on mother's day, is a life-changing opportunity for every mummy out there! pray for me that my mummy will go with me too ya? (:

loves! mo(:

MO loves GOD

Endless stream of Hope!(:
God cheers, comforts, and sustains His children whose hope and expectation is centered in
Him. For all those who wholeheartedly trust in Him, He empowers them - by His grace and
strength - to face whatever trials, opposition, difficulties, or dangers there might be.
They need never grow faint or disheartened - knowing that their God will always come
through for them. He promised that He would never leave nor forsake them (Hebrews 13:5)

help me understand-

2008-05-07T22:45:00.006+08:00

Pray. yes, let me pray. bring me closer to You. Teach me, let me learn. Let me thirst, let me cry. Be my Strength, and my Lord.

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i'd like to see your eyes
through those goggles
that you're wearing
don't try to hide away-
-'cause it's your song that
makes me fall in love with you
it's your song that
makes me fall in love
it's your song that
makes me fall in love with you

imissyou

i see the same side of the moon
but we'll be looking on when the world turns blue
and know the time, space can come betwen me and you
we share the same side of the moon
and though you'll never see all my tears shine through
i know i can't be afar from you
if we're both looking at the same side of the moon

loves, mo(:

my soul (:

2008-05-06T23:31:00.006+08:00

you know what?
i just wanna say

i really love God a lot

though my love would never be greater than his,
there's nothing that i will let hinder me again!

i will follow You!
my Lord, my Saviour, my Jesus Christ (:

God ((:
i thank You for JoyLau

Psalm 61:8

Then will I ever sing praise to your name and fulfill my vows day after day.

1 John 4:9-10

We love Him because He first loved us.

Matthew 7:7

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

sharing some love! (:

2008-05-04T13:13:00.000+08:00

The DIFFERENCE
--------------------------

Science and God

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist
professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his
new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?'

'Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?'

'Absolutely.'

'Is God good?'

'Sure! God's good.'

'Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?'

'Yes.'

'Are you good or evil?'

'The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a
moment.

'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you
can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?'

'Yes sir, I would.'

'So you're good...!'

'I wouldn't say that.'

'But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if
you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He
doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even
though he prayed to Jesus to heal him How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can
you answer that one?'

The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of
water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?'

'Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?'

The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there
evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.'

'Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything,
correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created
everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to
the principle that our works define who we are, then God is evil.'

Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues:
'Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible
things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his
question. 'Who created them? There is still no answer. Suddenly the
lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is
mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in
Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you
use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen
Jesus?'

'No sir. I've never seen Him'

'Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or
smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus
Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that,
son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem
science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a
question of his own. 'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.'

'No sir, there isn't.'

The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested.
The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.

'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat,
mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we
don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below
zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is
no such thing as cold; otherwise we would be able to go colder than the
lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when
it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have
or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat.
You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of
heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units
because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the
absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom,
sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as
darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night
if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the
absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright
light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have
Nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to
define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able
to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him.
This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is
flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time.
'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student
explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good
God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something
finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a
thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much
less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life
is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive
thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it.'

'Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they
evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young
man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'

The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he
realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work
and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you
not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a
preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the
Commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other
student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'

The student looks around the room. 'Is there anyone in the class
who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into
laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain,
felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No
one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of
empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no
brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain,
how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the
student, his face unreadable.

Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I
guess you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists
with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as
evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We
see it everyday. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man.
It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world.
These manifestations are nothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at
least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God.
It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe
the absence of God.

God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when
man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold
that comes when there is no heat or the darkness that comes when there
is no light.'

The professor sat down.

Pass this on if you have faith in God.
If not, still pass it on for it's a good story!

random

2008-05-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

just bathed and fed Winter!!
i'm so freaking tired can.
going to meet bei to study soon!

oh! forgot to thank Alvin,
for staying up late just to acc me study!
though it's just online,
thanks, dude! (:

hahah
gotta go bath now.

toodles!
love, mo

nothing else better to do =p

2008-05-03T09:46:00.001+08:00

=D i just re=packed my room!!
yep, now it's more or less considered as neat! =D
anyway, today's my beloved sister's birthday!!

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY!!!

went out with Cheryl and Irfan kor yesterday!
hahaha. oh well, there's nothing much to blog about it though.
LOL!!
saw bei at amk hub -.-
guess where she's going again?
yes, to *ahem* club.
LOL. just don't fotget to meet me to go changi together later!

hahah. later going for szesze zehzeh's Javier son's full month at changi chalet too!!
hahhaha. meanwhile, i better go try do some readings! (:

love ya!
mo ((:

p.s- thanks alvin for sending me the songs! (: [You Laid Aside Your Majesty, My heart, Your Home, and So You Would Come (:]
p.p.s- i bet Jaroson is mad at me. and i know you're reading this. whatever. but i can only say if you think not meeting up means i no longer care for you as a friend. you're wrong man, Biggie Time.
p.p.p.s-STUPID CTYJ! hahaha. yesterday Irfan there then must fake to say nothing's wrong! Poor HONEY! aww. i love you girl! i can tell things from just one look at your eyes! [heh. accept for figuring out who it was yesterday about, ya you know. hahah!!] muacks!
p.p.p.p.s- EILEEN ONG JIA MIN! i love you man! 15 liao! don't cry anymore, smile! OHOHOH!! and when you have $moolah$ remember to treat me to Ben&Jerry's okay! =D
p.p.p.p.p.s- Thank You Father, for every single moment in my life. (:

SAGI!

2008-05-02T01:20:00.000+08:00

how do i start?=D
CHEER WAS REALLY FAB YESTERDAY!
hahahha.
i guess our 9 days of hardwork seriously paid off!
really glad that we replaced the old dance with ours too =x
hahahhas.
i've got some photos of our last few trainings!
hahas. shall post them later (:
oooh. running was really bad for me.
wasn't in my best form to run.
so i didn't even give all out.
=x sorry dudes.
anyway, i love my cheerleading family! =D
everyone played a major role
and the best part was that we all had FUN whether training ended late or how tough it was!
that's the best part of life XD
oh! and we are actually 1 or 2 points away from taurus cheerleading!
i think it's really great already!
wanted to take a photog of me doing the splitmount but only to realise that jiayuan had already gone home so i couldn't do it! hahahha. JY's my base you see (:
oh well, never mind! (:
WHOO!!
love my cheerades! XD

went for dinner with joy and kim after sports evening ended at 9 plus.
hahha. went to changi airport T2 for sakae buffet!
whoo!!
had gastric though so i didn't stomach much. =p
kor came to fetch us home then((:

ivan! i'm really glad you won!
continue jiayou-ing! =D

some photogs (:

crazy moments

sakinah.sakinah.ragini =p

me.Rag.Eunice.Amirah(:

WHOO!

MEAGAN!!

LAURA!

YUEN YEE [aka YY] !!

isn't she sweet? (:

DEENAH FEEDING ME CHIPS! XD [but she ate them after the shoot -.- lols!]

SABRINAH!

and again =p

SAKINAH! (:

FAHAN~

MO.SAB.SAK.EUNICE.JY.FAHAN

more crazy moments =p

yep! that's kim! but that's for fun only. hahhaah

meagan.laura.deenah.yy

FILZAH!

BABYDOLL (:

EUNICE claims that deenah and i look like mother and daughter. haha!

the 4 who initiated reformation(:

[wah! sounds so nationalistic! lol!]

the girls(:

us again ((:

sagiCHEERADES =D

ON THE ACTUAL DAY:

EUNICE!!!

deenah!

meagan!

kim.joy.mo! XD

YY~

ZUUBAY!

[i hope it's spelt correctly! hahaha]

we have another video we took during practice.
waiting for filzah to send me! (:

loves, MO!

you did well, and will do better.
because i believe in you (:

well..

2008-04-28T13:49:00.000+08:00

let me know when the hierachy changes.
when volleyball and i are on par.
baby, i will wait for you (:

a blink of an eye

2008-04-28T13:42:00.000+08:00

we are sitting at the exact same spot of the playground where we used to sit.
yes. under the small canopy; leveled from the ground.
we leaned against each other.
my arm linked to yours.
we gazed far into the stars.
talking.
smiling.
laughing.
i could smell you.
you smelt good.
i closed my eyes and inhaled deeply.

and i opened my eyes.

you're gone.
i'm sitting there all alone,
with tears trickling down.
i felt lost.
i stared into the vast skies.
missing every single star.

wait.
what am i doing?
i left.

(: today was quite busy.
had a long [ok rather long only] HTH talk with meimei.
tears of joy and sorrows, all present.
watched the 1st disc of Little Mermaid Two.
one of my favourite caroons. hehe.
then we fell asleep in my room.

missed church):
woke up duper late.
the same time as service starts -.-
oh well.
then modeled.
tired.
very.
muscles aching. ):

then when"studying" with bei.
well, she studied.
i was reading the new edition of CLEO.
hahhah. and now, am home(:

oooh!! brought Winter for grooming too.
she smells good now(:

am off to continue reading my CLEO!
toodles~!

loves, mo

the last few moments we shared,
are now etched deeply within my heart;
because they are one of the sweetest we've ever had.
your picture would too remain in my wallet.
love love love

press on; don't give up

2008-04-27T03:50:00.000+08:00

i'm so calm
so cool.
weird huh?

i'm strong.

wait, maybe..
i guess it haven't sunk into me yet.

wishing for you
it often doesn't matter how it start
the best things can happen with a gentle touch
i'm not a shame to say
i'll be more than okay
if by some chance you just ask me to stay
do i see a twinkle of hope that's in your eyes
when you smile it feels so right it's no surprise
it's only you and i under the stars tonight
do we dare take it to where it feels right?

how do i see?
what's right for me?
do i deny,
what's inside

if i had wings i would fly
lifting my soul to the skies
if i had nine lives to live
wish i had you to be with
if i could make dreams come true
of all the things i would do
i know that i would be wishing for you

don't get me wrong
i don't live a live of dreams
but sometimes it's easier for me
why does it feel so right
believing in day and night
wishing that someday you might be with me

how do i see? [how do i see]
what's right for me?
do i deny,
what's inside

if i had wings i would fly
lifting my soul to the skies
if i had nine lives to live
wish i had you to be with
if i could make dreams come true
of all the things i would do
i know that i would be wishing for you

[wishing for you]

if i had wings i would fly
lifting my soul to the skies
if i had nine lives to live
wish i had you to be with
if i could make dreams come true
of all the things i would do
i know that i would be wishing for you

[wishing for you]

if i had wings i would fly
lifting my soul to the skies
if i had nine lives to live
wish i had you to be with
if i could make dreams come true
of all the things i would do
i know that i would be wishing for you

if i had wings i would fly
lifting my soul to the skies
if i had nine lives to live
wish i had you to be with
if i could make dreams come true
of all the things i would do
i know that i would be wishing for you

ran 4 x 100m and 8 x 50m today.
the latter was quite screwed but eugenia and i managed to catch up from the 8th position to the 5th.
quite an achievement(:
i was 1st runner for 4 x 100m so i'm not sure.
if we do get in for finals, we'll be re-strategising!! XD

going to city plaza soon
gotta get cropped top and mini shorts for SYF drama and tights for cheer leading!!
all due on thurs!! =x

ciao!

loves, mo
loved you,
and am still loving you

sweet18lau! x)

2008-04-27T00:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYLAU!

hello; goodbye

2008-04-26T14:31:00.000+08:00

7 months. hello, goodbye.
i was calm.
very.
God gave me a strength renewed.
Hallelujah.
my heart hurts.
i just realised how much i do still love you.
but yea. we took it as mature individuals.

so many pleasant and memorable past memories.
i'll keep them.
keep them really well and close to heart.
i would miss you so my lover boy.
how badly i wanted to scream for you to stay.
but i know it can't happen.
not now.
you still have so many other committments that priortises over me.
your no. passion now, volleyball.
jiayou k! (: i'm strong don't worry about me.
i just wanna see that medal in your hand the next time we meet okay!
don't make me sacrifice for nothing!!

was so relieved to have finally said to take a break.
we need it no doubt.my voice quivered,
but who cares.
it was only you and me.
it was good after that.
easing all the tension.
talk casually. i'm happy with that simple chat. yes. very. it felt so good.
i miss you!
yea. it ended with a light-hearted chat.
and i'm happy.
very.

i could see all the sadness that dwelled within the tears of your eyes;
and i'm glad that i was the one who could wiped those tears away for you;
i do still love you.

God blesses.
He blessed you.

loves, mo

Let all not glorify me but God alone

2008-04-25T15:52:00.000+08:00

i've learnt something!
to treasure whatever that i have now.
otherwise there might be smiles that would never be uncovered again.
like how dancing makes me smile.
and how my sweet friends just tickle me to laughter with their jokes.
so,
GO SAGI CHEER!
ROCK ON!! =D

please pray for me and us[the sagi team(:].
Lord be my strength.

You raise me up

someone asked me to watched this too[cool huh]:
sorry seems to be the hardest word

stoned- mo

prayers then mean much

2008-04-24T14:47:00.000+08:00

sorry peeps!
life's been soo busy ever since i joined cheer last week.
great leaps had been made too!
hahaha. we'll we won something within the SAGI but because it's a long story so i shan't spell it out here =p
LOVE my cheer squad!
hahaha. cheer had been SUPER FUN!
teehee.we spent last sat finding the right songs and started choreographing some parts of it.
much credits to Ragini, Sak and Amirah!! =D
yep, it was held at my house. had fun! XD
it's hard to believe that we've managed to cover so much just within such short and few days!!
we're coolios! XDD the whole team i mean!
whoo! love them! the juniors are so cute and funny! ahahahs
many smiles!!
the coolest part is we manage to teach all of our steps in just 2 SHORT DAYS!
how cool can that be? tell me.
WAHHAHAHAHHA XD
love them!
will be taking loads of photos with them soon!! =D
well,i hope so! this my final school year eh! hehe..

much love to Joylau and Kimburly!
just love ya.(:
for being so supportive.
muacks!

loves to CHERYLTHAMYIJUN!
i'm sorry the bbq never came!
i still love you hon!
tons and i mean it! =D

loves my sis and bei!
meet up soon ok!(:

actually...
i, still do,
love you

loves, mo(:

p.s-fri is the dry run! pray for Sagi! love ya peeps! (:
next wed is Sports night! pray for us as well yeah!!

p.p.s= i', totally wiped out! can die! just had an econs test today which i didn't study for. =x and a history paper tomorrow! and i'm already in STAR!!

heart of worship

16|04|08 ((:

2008-04-17T11:39:00.000+08:00

today wasn't soo bad (:
was dreading the entire day though.
lol. didn't want to go to PACER meeting at first but went anyways,
never regretted!
manage to skip STAR for that.
HAHA!!
in case you are wondering what does STAR stand for,
i'll tell you now.
Sit
There
And
Rot.
yep. (:
was facilitators for my small group today
super fickle at first!!
but oh well,
we did not bad at all!!
all thanks to my super duper supportive team! =D
you guys rock!!
=DD

gotta bathe now and go chiong history liao =x

but before that~
some photos [of the beautiful weather] i took during PACER wheelchair course =p :

winter is duper naughty today ):
hmphf!

mo(:

i'm dedicating this post to God (:

2008-04-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

My Heart, Your Home

So You Would Come

Come to the Lord.
God loves You.
Yes, You.

But Jesus said, "Let the children alone, and do not hinder them from coming to Me; for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." -Matthew 19:14

God loves me.
God loves You

loves, mo

drained out

2008-04-16T04:52:00.000+08:00

day started well.(:
God have given you many blessings Jaroson!
press on!((:

WOW~
today is a super duper tiring day man!!
lol.
first had 2.4 [which i think i have to retake to get a GOLD]
): tired out!
then joined SAGI house cheerleading ((:
it was fun no doubt!
well, at least with enjoyable peeps!
might have to be this flier who has to split -.-
had to try out still! (:
yeah. mo, the cheerleader.
LOL.
well, at least i'm doing stunts instead of additional dance!
the dance is cramping up my mind!
can't even remember all the steps.
man oh man.
got buck up! i got duuper bad memory!
hahah.
anyway, when we were slacking,
sak and i was talking about front flips[who joy can execute perfectly. teehee]
i decided to try too!!
hahah. but i was loser-ish =.="
LOL!
first attempt was a complete failure!!
stumbled. haha!!
now, here's the funny part:
while i was at the second attempt,
i flipped and-
STUCK.
YES, i got STUCK
then it was only after 3 marvellous seconds that did it hit me that i was actually doing a handstand
hhahaha. then!
i got shock and a little scared cause i didn't know how to flip over!!
so i just let go and landed on my back instead.
then then then!!!
my shirt flipped up!
OHMYGOSH luh!
thank God it was only half-way!!!
so embarrassing!
YEP! that's me!
mo the loser
hahah!!
well, at least i felt it was not bad.
considering the fact that it was my first several attempts and i managed a handstand!
ROFLOL!!
anyway, we're going to practise hard!
and study hard too!!
jiayou jiayou jiayou!!
WHOO!!

loves my babes[CHERYL!!KIM!!JOY!!!BEI!!MEI!!....]
loves God(:

mo.

p.s.-
*oh ya! did the 5 stations last fri.
managed to get a whooping 25 points!!
all A's!! WHOO!
standing broad jump amazed me the most!
202 despite not practising!!
instead of last year's 168! haha!!
S&R-58
S-U-31
IPU-18
SR-10.8s
hahahs. just wanted a A so everything was border =p glad though!! =D*
`whoo!anyway i got a CRAZY B for PW! God Rocks!!! xDD``

:)

2008-04-15T14:04:00.000+08:00

my dog loves me!
she's constantly smothering me with kisses!!
hahahahs

taken by me (:

loves, mo

(:

2008-04-14T00:17:00.000+08:00

well. took many photos through the days (:
so i shall not say anything.
let the pictures do the talking (:

Pillowman

ponners =x

Sushi Tei

school

the day we went to see Hazel

before marcus went into camp
jiayou best friend!

my pizza -.-"

something i want(:

alrighto!
that's all folks!

love ya!
mo

things happen for a cause

2008-04-12T15:14:00.000+08:00

found out something really sad and scary today):
shan't declare it.
but, well, these things just really sets you back questioning yourself.
why did it happen?

i believe God has His reasons for doing this.

let me pray. let me dwell within You.

loves, mo

save them

2008-04-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

life is short but long

2008-04-10T13:12:00.000+08:00

i finally understood
life lis a never ending experience
of responsibilities and commitments
love and hurt
smiles and tears.

God lead me through
be my guide; my shepherd.

and i know i would be wishing for you
you make me wanna be brave
i love you too much to make you stay,
baby fly away

loves[and still loving], michelle

just feeling sucky.

2008-04-08T13:45:00.000+08:00

well..
i'm feeling super emo.
don't ask. [it's all because of my lifeless schedule]
i won't explain.[sucks. i hate my life. blame jc]
i need time off.
how many days do i have Lord?
it pains me.
my eyes are stinging full of tears.
my heart breaks so..
why do i know not of anything?
why have my senses dulled?
why?
there shall be no more 'why's soon.
wait for me.
i'll be back Lord.
just give me a little more while.
let me treasure the last few moments
before i bade farewell.
let me feel the warmth once more..
i just want a real final touch.
before kissing goodbye...

explain my new emo song ya?
lol.
i'm not dying,
at least, not yet.
LOL!

"would you make friends with a girl who gaze into the skies and smile silly to herself?"

"i believe she have a dream, and i hope that if she don't mind, we can both look up into the sky and smile together"

wow. amazing isn't it? what great friendship can bring about.

"for you i can give up everything. everything"

praying hard..
would i be able to find the prayer room?
i'll be gone[maybe soon]
but just for awhile.
don't miss me. lol.

tomorrow's 2.4,
sucks.
kill me.

stabbed,
mo

more pics(:

2008-03-27T14:21:00.000+08:00

(: PACER reps trainging was rather fun today(:
wen jia and i crapped through out. lol!
had free donuts from munchy's to eat too! =D
haah.
anyway, just here to advertise(:

made a collage of yaya and i(:

loves, mo(:
GOD is love

another day (:

2008-03-26T16:13:00.000+08:00

hmmm. today's quite duh =.=
[rather, yesterday]

fell asleep in the first lecture. =x

lol. got back GP and history SBQ.

got a scraped E for GP and a freaking 6 for SBQ.

LOL! didn't have time to do so won't compain. xp

anyway, Joy! You did really well and you definitely deserved it!

keep it up!

more results will be out soon!

slightly nervy i guess =x

should prolly start mugging real soon!

hahhaha.

just finished watching
Snow Buddies
was really good!
you should catch it too! ((:\

anyways, i'm game station master with emma
this sat for local cip.
must reach school at 830!!!
lol. it's my kor's bdae tooo.
arrgh! lol.
i bette rgo sleep now.
gotta to to school myself tomorrow =x
lol.

Just to share some love((x
a teenager's view of Heaven(:

Very thought provoking. Hope you read it to its end!!!!!
A TEENAGER'S VIEW OF HEAVEN

17-year-old Brian Moore had only a short time to write something for a class. The subject was what Heaven was like. 'I wowed 'em,' he later told his father, Bruce. 'It's a killer. It's the bomb. It's the best thing I ever wrote..' It also was the last.

Brian Moore died May 27, 1997, the day after Memorial Day. He was driving home from a friend's house when his car went off Bulen-Pierce Road in Pickaway County and struck a utility pole. He emerged from the wreck unharmed but stepped on a downed power line and was electrocuted.

The Moores framed a copy of Brian's essay and hung it among the family portraits in the living room. 'I think God used him to make a point. I think we were meant to find it and make something out of it,' Mrs. Moore said of the essay. She and her husband want to share their son's vision of life after death. 'I'm happy for Brian. I know he's in heaven. I know I'll see him.'

Brian's Essay: The Room...

In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endless in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read 'Girls I have liked.' I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was.

This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching.

A file named 'Friends' was next to one marked 'Friends I have betrayed.' The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird 'Books I Have Read,' 'Lies I Have Told,' 'Comfort I have Given,' 'Jokes I Have Laughed at .' Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: 'Things I've yelled at my brothers.' Others I couldn't laugh at: 'Things I Have Done in My Anger', 'Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents.' I never ceased to be surprised by the contents.

Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my years to fill each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked 'TV Shows I have watched', I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of shows but more by the vast time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked 'Lustful Thoughts,' I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content.

I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!' In insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh.

And then I saw it.. The title bore 'People I Have Shared the Gospel With.' The handle was brighter than those around it,seemed newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that they hurt. They started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him.

No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at His face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own.

He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. 'No!' I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was 'No, no,' as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side.

He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, 'It is finished.' I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written.

'I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.'-Phil. 4:13 'For God so loved the world that He gave His only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' If you feel the same way forward it so the love of Jesus will touch their lives also My 'People I shared the gospel with' file just got bigger, how about yours?

IF THERE IS ONE EMAIL THAT I HAVE READ THAT NEEDS TO GO AROUND THE WORLD, IT IS THIS ONE, FOR THE CHRISTIAN OR NOT! MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
> > You don't have to share this with anybody, no one will know whether you did or not, but what do you feel in your heart?

-by the courtesy of sheila who sent it to me! (:

loves, mo! (:

eventful (:

2008-03-25T14:16:00.000+08:00

firstly,
i know i haven't been blogging much.
that's because i'm moody and feeling
too lazy

secondly,
i've decided to come blog.
that's because i have nothing to do and am
way too bored

thirdly,
time really flies.
unknowingly, six months has already gone us by.
i hope you know

fourthly,
i'm going to start blogging,
NOW

okay, let's start from today.
feeling super:
moody; tired; sleepy
kept falling asleep during lit lect.
Nathan was so freaking boring.
can't help.
my whole row dozed of like cute little piglets(:
History was a free period.
Mahmood didn't prepare anything cause he was
too busy marking all the scripts
and he's only left with a shocking 40 plus!
oh man, i mean-
is he some sort of marking robot?
scary! haha. but that's cool too (:
rushed to meet Cheryl and gang after that (x
went to sentosa!!
FINALLY! like after a long excruciating 3 months!
but, oh well.
main objective wasn't to tan but to
PLAY!!!
wooohooo!!!
finally!! played volleyball like crazy.
like there was no tomorrow. lols!
joined this RJC group,too, at caps.(:
cool people(:
then went into the water as well.
well, like duh? hahas!
hmm. more people in sentosa than expected today!(:
well, maybe because it wasn't raining till we left.
so cool right? XD lol.
anyway, i've got an extremely ugly tan now!
YUCKS! lol!
didn't take off my tanktop today.
now there are a lot of different shades.
haha. i'll let the pictures do some talking as well (:

anyway, while we were on our way to sentosa,
this freaking magazine dropped from the escalator above my head!
could have killed me or the girl beside.
so people, please grab hold of your things real tight when you're traveling on the escalator. (:

the fallen mag.

at dhoby ghaut towards harbour front

met andy from OPSS on the way home(:

talked a lot. catching up ma.

haha. all the best for your gpa dude!!

okay, the day's done.
now on sunday (:
sunday was the first combined chinese service.
i invited jaroson to sit in for our service.
he quite liked it i think. lol!
but well, i prefer the old youth service much better,=p
anyway, i just have to try to get use to it first!(:
after service Jaroson brought me to go observe some dog trainings
they pups are really cute! and not as naughty as my winter!
lol. at simei was yaya(:
she's sososo adorable!
she can even balance the treat on her nose! xD
let's see some of yaya and me. =p teehee~

yep, that's me and yaya the goldie(:
after that when to kembangan
they have two daughters celeste and natasha.
nathasha's scared of dogs whereas celeste loves them (:
chester,beagle, and ginger, JRT pup(:
soo cute! but chester's really stubborn!
after that, we went ALL the way back to queenstown again(:
hazel, the sheltie, and her owner joyce.
joyce was really freaky at first.
she still is for me.
but oh well, heard they are really doing quite well together now(:
Glad for them!
God bless these cuties!! (X

ok.. now... what did i do on saturday...?
can hardly remember..
but i remembered that i chiong fast and fast script.
wait was that on fri instead?
arrgh! whatever! LOL.

ooh! i remembered!

modelled like there's no tomorrow for my cus.

so, check out www.superiorgirl.livejournal.com now! (:

anyway, i'm really sleepy now.
ciao!
loves, mo.
mo misses him

Your Great Love, so abundant.
Thank You

today, another day

2008-03-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

bah!
i was right.
today was indeed horrible.
now i still have to rush my fast and fresh script.
sick and tired of this hectic life.
when is my break coming?

waited and waited.

winter bit my nose today when i went to confide in her.
but after that she was very nice to me though.
lol. i love her soo.
sorry winter for my bad mood..):

tomorrow will be another busy yet free day for me!
hyang jun going to genting too.
hope he has a safe and nice trip which he would really enjoy and unwind himself!
well. i love him.. what more can i say?

oh well. i better go rush my script now!
lit was rathered screwed anyways.
lol. tried my best though!
(:

mo.

you. i love

2008-03-21T02:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a bad day.
explains much of me not updating.
many people just happen to call
hearing my sad tone they asked what's up
then they tried to cheer me up.
thank you so much y'all
i really appreciate it lots.
[i think God is working in my life in so many ways(:]
(: you guys rock. all
just keep your smiles intact when you see me yeah?
i love seeing them.
they brighten up my day tons.

well, today will suck
firstly because i had no time to go throught lit
and i'm blogging here now -.-
secondly, i'm not in the mood to do any paper.
thirdly, i wanna celebrate despite how bad my mood sucks
but i have to submit fast and fresh script by today's midnight.
and lastly,
my paper's in 2 hours time!
Fuck! lol.

anyway, yesterday 'studying' at amk mac's was more than all smiles
meaning: we didn't give a dman look at the books at all.
LOL!
let pictures do the work!

isn't she comparable to my dearest winter? xp

haha. was sooo tempted t bring her home luh!
but, oh well. lols.

we went crazy 'studying'! whahahha!

God, i'm glad that you provided me with thus shelter, solace and love.
I love You God.
and I'm too just glad that my eyes ain't puffy either (:
otherwise there'd be countless explainations to make.
God, lastly, i just have to say again.
i do love him so

loved, cried and smiled,
mo

Prodigy

2008-03-19T11:38:00.000+08:00

I'm in love!!
he's soo good i tell ya!
you'll surely fall for him too!!

Bravo Sungha Jung!
You're my child prodigy hero!!
WHOO!! ((:
he's only 11! ((:
cool huh (:
i'll marry him.
HAHHAHHA!!!
no luh siao!
later my boyfriend jealous. =p
[love ya hj!(:]
well, God bless him!

love God! ((:
loves, mo

one more to go!!

Blocky's killer!

2008-03-18T14:28:00.000+08:00

my insides are flipping.
why did the flame of
fear of losing rekindle now?

maths and history were rather screwed today.
oh well, what can i do?
i shall just leave all in God's hand (:
Hallelujah

tomorrow is econs.
well, i'm going to say this once again.
it's just Blocky!
LOL! still, i'll pra and do my best during the paper
and leave the rest in my Shepherd's hands(:

love you God!

oh well.
sort of flared at hyang jun today. ):
i'm so sorry.
i'm lacking of sleep.
i need more sugar rush!!!
chocolate! chocolate!
here i come!!! =D

i'm craving for sentosa!
really really badly!!
and CHERYL THAM YIJUN!
i missed you like siao can!
meet up after my Blocky and before you leave yea?!
i wanna meet up with you!!!!
AHHH!!! MISS! LOVE YA HON!!

i miss you
&
i love you

God bless to all!
MO(:

to share some love(:

2008-03-17T05:57:00.000+08:00

ohh!!

i'm back within a few minutes again!

hahha.

okok, i'm jsut going to share this now and i'll be away before you realise it! =D

Too Busy to Pray
This devotional was written by Jim Burns

Very early in the morning, while it was still dark Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed. — Mark 1:35

A Christian youth worker I know recently described the students in his youth group: "Our students are just too busy to get serious with God." Can you identify with this? Most of us aren't evil. We aren't trying to stay away from God on purpose. We are just too busy to pray.
Have you ever had a conversation like this with God?

God: I'd like to spend some time with you today, Jim.

Jim: Great. I'd love to.

God: How about right now?

Jim: Right now? Uh, I'm a little late for school. I'll catch you later.... I promise.

God: Okay, I'll be waiting.

Jim: I'll see you at the lunch break.

God: Okay, I'll be waiting.

God: Hey Jim, I missed you at lunch. Your body was there but your mind wasn't.

Jim: I know. I'm sorry. I've got so much to do and so much on my mind. I just forgot to pray.

God: Are you ready to spend some time with me now? I know you only have a few minutes before class.

Jim: Well, uh, er, I haven't studied for my math test. I'll have to catch you later.

God: Okay, I'll be waiting.
(After the 10:00 p.m. TV show)

God: Jim, I love you and I miss you. I've been waiting all day to be with you, Jim. Let's just focus for maybe five minutes.

Jim: I know. I'm sorry. I really feel bad. I'm so busy. Thanks for being so understanding, God. Thanks for... (Jim falls asleep.)

God: Oh well, maybe he'll have time for me tomorrow.

Are you too busy to pray? If you are, then you are simply too busy. God loves you and wants regular time with you because you are so special in his eyes. When is your special appointment with God? This may seem overly simplistic but it is true: People with a regular time with God will have a closer relationship with Him.

GOING DEEPER:
1. What did Jesus do in Mark 1:35?
2. Do you have a set time and place to meet with God daily? If not, set an appointment with God today.

PSALM OF PRAISE:
Happy are those who reject the advice of evil men, who do not follow the example of sinners or join those who have no use for God. Instead, they find joy in obeying the law of the LORD, and they study it day and night. They are like trees that grow beside a stream, that bear fruit at the right time, and whose leaves do not dry up. They succeed in everything they do. Psalm 1:1-3

message from:

procrastinating big time

2008-03-17T05:44:00.000+08:00

great. this week that is already at its last day was meant to be study break.

blocky is TOMORROW!

freak it man.

guess what?

i did NOTHING for the entire week despite constantly saying:

"i'm outside and i'm going to study."

what a big liar mo!

procrastinated like imma shitty ass

like da end of procrastinatin' is da end of ma world.

freakin' piece of shit imma.

slap me please.

someone, come kill me.

and now, just when i finally decided to get started,

i got freakin' poked by a PENCIL.

and now, my wound is all stained in lead

and it doesn't come out at all.

studying hates me as much

i hate it it seems.

i'm totally glad and fine with it i tell you!

GET OUT OF MY LIFE IF WE WEREN'T MEANT FOR EACH OTHER!!

Freak.

not even sure if the black line will ever go off or not.

what an ass.

imma gonna fail ma blocky.

imma ass.

FREAK.

met ivan yesterday after bout, say..

1 and a half weeks?

missed him!

went to city plaza with bei too.

had HK cafe! loves!

watched step up 2 with bei and eirene on thurs.

it's damn good i tell ya!

must watch!!!

AHH!!

okok, only people who like dancing or dance shows will like it though.

it's either you like it alot, or you simply hate it.

and you know what?

I LOVE IT.

so you better move your asses in the theatre now.

hahaha!!!

ok,

told myself that i shall study cause Mr ILHJ lectured me when he asked if i studied.

i told him i hate studying and it's sooo boring!

arrgh. told myself to study yesterday.

instead i'm surfed the net. haa

likewise for now,

i'm suppose to study.

i'm blogging.

shit me please.

FUK.

imma piece of trash and

imma off.

buried;

death causes -

results from autopsy: studying

2008-03-15T04:01:00.000+08:00

i bit back my tears
fought the urge
stared into the skies
in desparation.
Father, enlighten me
is this path really long and lonely?
is this path really void of love.
if love prevails,
why are they like this?
if love prevails,
why does it still hurt so?
i'm tired.
Lord, embrace me.

expectations that were never gratified.

):hurt
)):sad
disappointed, mo

agitated

2008-03-15T03:49:00.000+08:00

fuck, yesterday i was still telling jaroson how beautiful i think my life is.
but now, i have a change in mind.
i;m freaking disappointed in life.
no matter how much i thank God for my beautiful family,
they don't know.
they don't appreciate.
they don't make things clear.
they just lash out their anger on me when the person is not around.
fuck, i'm freaking tired this.

hurt

2008-03-13T09:14:00.000+08:00

no matter how hard i tried,
you were never satisfied.

all i wanted was a little favour..

hurt, mo

drowning

2008-03-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

why are you so obstinate?
is his love for you really so strong?
does he love you wholly?
are you even sure?
why did you misplace our love and trust?
we gave you love without condition.
what about him?
how sure are you that he feels the same?
you said he wasn't good.
but what happened?
you often cry so easily.
so easily.
always saying that he likes someone else.
why do you still stay put?
why would you love someone who's unfaithful
and just dump our love for you?
it this the way you want?
us to stop loving you no more?
have you ever thought ahead into space?
would he still be there?
would he still love or rather like you?
is he able to love and care for you like we did?
have you thought?
why did you change?
why did you drift apart?
why do you not love us anymore..
it hurts so..

someone please get me a zippo for my birthday.
i'm sick of these.
this life, this expectations, this burden thrown upon me.
everything.
someone please come screw me and my life upside down.

weighs as heavy as lead.
then,
thrown into the vast vast sea.

screwit, mo

may peace come upon me; fall afresh in me

2008-03-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

was fucking pissed.
needed someone to talk to
talked to bei.
still was pissed.
still wanted someone to talk to.
someone to cheer me up.
but i guess i'm quite alright.
shall just internalize all my feelings.
keep them bottled up. haa! [k i'm crazy]

bottle of troubles
will you ever fill
when you do
will you erupt
upon the innocent
or just let it by pass?

have ever felt some days
could be just so unproductive?
when yoi made schedules and then
your plans are just wrecked and then screwed?
seriously, how irritating can it get.
i've gone along with your wishes.
all of what you wanted me to be
yet not what i wanna be
when would i be me.
when can i finally earn what that i truly desire for?
there's so much i want.
you could say i yearn for the world.
but i don't care.
those are my dreams out there.
waiting and still awaiting
do i have wait till they crash?
or just pray that they wait for me as i wait for them?
my dreams unreached
desires unfulfilled
i yearn.
yearn desperately for the day of liberation.
to soar towards my dreams and not yours.
to achieve my wants and not your expectations.
seriously, i have had enough.

helped bei do up some photos
for SG.
there you go:

ya, i'm advertising for my cousin (:
i'm feeling better now (:
thanks hon for your msg! love ya loads!!

loves, mo

the photos! [finally; lol!]

2008-03-11T01:31:00.000+08:00

yea, those were taken when we were suppose to be overnight study-ing -.- haaas!

just the both of us

going crazy

together

we just missed our long hair really badly that's all

and this! is my baobei! XD

HAA!

i'm blessed (:

Thank God ((:

loves, mo

You and you and you

2008-03-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

i miss him [rather badly]

service was really meaningful (:
learnt something.
really valuable i thought.
something we christians should all ought to know.
let all things you have done well not bring glory to yourself;
Glory to be the God's
(: iloveGod
there were more.
but this is really important i thought(:

met Cheryl((: like finally. haas
met at bugis then we mrt-ed to vivocity cos we wanted to have B&J's
but in the end, we had dinner first at LJS and thus were too full to eat ice-cream):
met Daddy too (x finally as well.
well, he finally brought me to Candy Empire to buy the chocs he promised 2 years ago
LOL!
but )): again, i'm still too full to thin k of what to get even. haas
wanted to go to see jerret [i think that's the spelling] lol
but daddy's entire gigananormous family is there so hon and i decided to not go.
went to Cheryl hon's house to watch shows instead =D
watched Cinderella
thought i didn't watch it before intially
then realised that i watched it with hon 3 years ago.
whoo! time really flies eh?
haas. i love all my peeps!! HON! YOU! yes you! hahaha!!!

bringing winter to East Point Mall tomorrow cause Jaroson is bugging to see her cause he misses her.
well, he's the guy who took care and look after and trained winter before i got her (:
had to buy her stuff anyway so i said i'm bringing her there (:
korkor sending me there in the evening ((:
well, have to get the photoshoot done first -.-
ohwell. hope it'll be chop chop! (x
i want that freaking dress luh!
bei see this?? i want i want! hahahhaha!!!

had tuition this morning also,
well sue was really nice though i was quite slow.
thanks sue! you rock! ((:

winter's lovely!
i love her!
thank God for everything and everyone around me!!! xD

i wanted to post a few photos of me and bei when we had overnight studying [please kill us]. but seems like the system is slightly corked up now. so, oh well.

i miss you

loves, mo

(:

2008-03-09T02:26:00.000+08:00

decided to add new songs=.=
but ohwell, it's my blog right?
who cares.
hahaha!!!

i really like this song! ((:
it's so meaningful.
well, at least from a Christian's perspective
ILOVEGOD!

You Laid Aside Your Majesty
　
You laid aside Your majesty,
 Gave up everything for me,
 Suffer'd at the hands of those you have created.
 You took all my guilt and shame,
 When You died and rose again;
 Now today You reign,
in heav'n and earth exalted.
  I really want to worship You, my Lord,
 You have won my heart and
I am Yours For ever and ever; I will love You. 
You are the only one who died for me,
 Give Your life to set me free, 
So I lift my voice to You, in adoration... 

thanks to the Holy One, the Risen One

2008-03-08T17:14:00.000+08:00

came across this really meaningful quote (:

"I thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(I who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any - lifted from the no
of all nothing - human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

- E. E. Cummings -"

i trust in Him
that He makes my like whole
He makes them meaningful
and He makes them complete.
i pray that You use me Lord.
that i may do my share of serving (:
i love You God!

pray that winter will pass tomorrow! ((:

just some snap shots of winter (:

loves, mo

(:

2008-03-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front.

Shy and private, you yearn for security.

You take relationships slowly.

You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

If you don't get enough sleep, you are: Cranky and a big baby

It's hard to sleep next to you because: You are a light sleeper

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

that's so true (:
anyway, trng with winter was quite good today (:
jiayou for next test my baby!
hee.
more pics!
post another day (:

loves,mo

pics galore! (:

2008-03-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

well. drama course today was definitely enriching(:

and fun.

hahahs.

really glad that i'm in it.

nothing elso much to blog

other than me being in mac's right now and going to do overnight studying with my cousin.

wait, if we ever get down to work that is.

LOL.

nothing else.

just posting some photos (:

this dog loves posing

for th cam(:

cam-whore. lol

peek-a-boo!

ok, maybe not so in here =x

my glamour dog

naughty girl

my baby (:

like owner like dog:

who's fiercer? xp

ok, enough of winter (:

yay! i love my boyfriend =D

loves, mo

Godlovesyou

going bonkus

2008-02-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

there are times when i just need you

to be by my side

even just to stare in space

and do nothing,

i will be happy enough.

wait, am i really dying?

bloody

2008-02-29T14:26:00.000+08:00

body seems to be dying again.

sucks man.

but oh well,

why should i care?

it's always been like this for thus long already anyway.

and still to get all the rubbish.

sometimes it's just that i genuinely forget to take my medication.

it's not always on purpose.

as i said, why should i care anymore?

i'm such a failure anyway.

grades sucks to the core.

screw the A's.

and for the health again,

seriously, who would care?

not that i would anymore so i'll just take my medication when i remember.

stop nagging.

you don't seem to care.

probably never did.

you don't--yes, i don't.either

screw the screwed-up body of mine.

freak it.

i hate everything.

well, almost.

oh anyway i decided to use reverse psychology.

i LOVE historyeconslitmaths(:

freak, mo

sometimes

2008-02-26T07:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes when i miss you

i will just have to gaze upon the rising sun

wishing that you are warm

sometimes when i miss you

i just have to whisper to the wind

hoping that it would send them to you

sometimes when i miss you

i just have to smile upon the skies

wishing that you are fine

sometimes when i miss you

i just have to walk in the rain

hoping that you are dry

sometimes when i miss you

i just have to gaze upon the stars

wishing that you are missing me too

sometimes when i miss you

there's no sometimes at all

loves, mo

best birthday guys! (:

2008-02-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

had the best birthday surprise so far (:

planned lots of stuff for the three guys ((:

first, we told them to wear glam and lied that we're going to seoul garden for dinner.

then the 6 of us would go missing mysteriously.

then they would be brought to SAF yacht club to meet us (:

haas. it's hard to say so i'm not going to bother typing it out anymore

ahaha!

anyway it was a really great night and many photos taken! =D

called ivan but he was on an overseas line,

so oh well.

sang in church

though i didn't know the songs initially,

i still managed to do just fine! (:

Thank God!!

anyway,

today's great

but,

tomorow's hell!

meeting him tomorrow though (:

loves, mo

(:

2008-02-24T13:02:00.000+08:00

thought i was going collapse today ):

woke up with a suuper duuper uuper bad gastric.

got through it and made my way for flagday.

we were losers ):

didn't collect much.

the journey to amkss was hell.

i board the bus and sat down,

then suddenly 2 crazy ah bengs came to sit at the seats beside me

they start saying hello and all sorts

i ignored.

listened to music.

but they're so stubborn they didn't stop.

they made obvious hand gestures.

i treated them as if they're are atoms in the air

LOL

they must be infuriated.

thank God the torturous journey lasting only 15 minutes (:

had dog training (:

winter was quite good (:

thread broke but she still remained at 'heel' (:

happy.

she's a smelly dog now >.<

bathing her tomorrow though! x)

just had a super full dinner

feel like puking

bah!

if i had wings i would fly

lifting my soul to sky

if i had nine lives to live

wish that i have you to be with

if i can make dreams come true

all of the things i would do

i know that i would

be wishing for you

he deng rong yao

loves, mo (:

l:

2008-02-23T16:18:00.000+08:00

had ultimate heartburn today.

didn't bring my gaviscon liquid,

so couldn't do P.E.

ARRGGH!

it's always like that!

when i'm ready to do P.E something crops up.

just like WAKEBOARDING!!

ARRGGH!

anw,

met joy and then bei.

was a rather unproductive day for me.

got mummy something though (:

lavender aroma therapy bubble bath from- The Body Shop (:

she likes she likes!

glad that she likes!

WTF! on my way home.

this man was sitting in front of me.

so gross can?

dunno why i always kena these types of disgusting stuff,

but, the man was:

picking his nose;

hand went to mouth;

started biting nails;

the picks again;

then to mouth;

then digs ear;

then scratches hair;

then digs ear again;

then smells his fingers;

then back to digging the ears;

then back to the nose;

and the cycle continues from the top.

couldn't fall asleep from the amazingly long bus ride.

i know you must be thinking : what a bitch she is,

BUT! it was really so gross alright?

i just had to let it out somewhere.

sorry! =p

didn't go for maths consultation this morn,

hope Mr Chua's not pissed!

he's a teacher too nice to have being angry with you!

i send him a message showing how suuuper apologetic i am

hope he's not mad! =x

(:joy and i agrees upon some monetary issues.

i firmly stand on our ground cause we're sure.

finally met bei after soo long luh!

sort of catched up.

LOL. (: i missed you tons actually.

i suddenly had this sudden tremors,

like i was awaken from a beautiful dream,

shaken back to the realm of reality,

where reality kicks in,

where dream crashes,

where smiles fade,

where hearts break,

where tears drop,

where blood drips,

where mind's blank,

where i'm lost.

God,

why is life so tough?

i know the answer,

but i need affirmation.

God,

i know you hear me.

i know i gotta learn.

i know you're always there for me.

Suddenly, i see,

i hear, taste, smell, feel

brought to the face of His divinity.

where comfort settles,

where souls are lifted,

where smiles are brightened,

where hearts are mended,

where tears are sparkles of joy,

where blood comes Love,

where solace is near,

where i'm found.

God,

thou art magnificent,

thou art worthy,

thou art king,

thou art all thy need.

Thank You Heavenly Father.

i miss you, badly.

i need you by my side now..

but i'll be strong.

..kiss my fears away with your love..

(:

2008-02-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

i feel crazy

i feel lazy

i feel cranky

i feel touched

i feel bored

i feel lethargic

i feel stress

i feel nostalgia

i feel relaxed

i feel worried

i feel anxious

i feel exasperated

i feel shocked!

i feel sad

i feel emo

i feel blank

i feel curious

i feel adventurous

i feel creative

i feel warmth

i feel comfort

i feel love

i feel missed

i feel everything (:

God's really given us such wonderful gift!

to allow us to experience all sorts of emotions.

i love you God! =D

oh! and i put up a song though i really hate blogs having songs.

but because i really really love the song [ever since joy started singing it]

and that it's really really nice, i decided to put it up. =p enjoy!

mo loves you! (:

missing you too!

):

2008-02-11T12:52:00.000+08:00

Past few days have been really boring.
i'm so bored.
somehow even collecting red packets is boring.
i'm so bored to the extend that haven't even open any of them.
i'm bored because i'm stuck at home everyday.
i'm bored i have nothing to do other than staring at the computer or gambling.
both which i don't really like.
i'm bored.
i'm sad ):
i'm so so sad.
my life is so screwed.
i hate jc.
can't even heave a sign of relief at all.
kill me please.
someone.
anyone.
this is so irritating.

loves,mo

1st (:

2008-02-08T20:10:00.000+08:00

well, as cheryl requested, my wish list is up.
otherwise she has no idea what to get me.
but HAHA! she's gonna regret it =p
it's all those costly gadgets.
WHOO!!
REDNESS ROCKS!

hahaha..
today was rather boring as in there wasn't mush oc the CNY atmosphere somehow.
but anyway, collected lots of ang pows.
haha! CHERYL!
if you see this, go collect more!!
we go pamper ourselves.
hehehe.=p

watched CJ7 with Ivan (: and his cousins.
they're really cool people.
bonded and slightly crazy.
just like part of my extended family.
hahaha. cute(:
and his sisters are really sweet.
haas.

sorry Chery! =x they wanted to watch CJ7
so it was by their popular demand!
but it you want i can still watch with you (:
the CJ7 is soo cute that i don't mind watching a few more times. wahahhah!! =p

here's some photos (:

sorry i'm too lazy to flip them =x

ting tang wala wala ding dang =p

the best times are when quality time is shared(:

shine Your light in

let the whole world see (:

lunar new year eve

2008-02-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

today was chuxi.
had miscommunications.
i didn't know that there was reunion lunch and dinner today.
got home late.
mom and dad was mad.
guilty ):
went to ah kong house for reunion dinner.
ah kong and ah ma are the best cooks ever! =D
oh! finally saw Carol's baby girl (:
Cassandra, Xiu Juan.
She's chinese indian.
but still so beautiful and adorable! =D
Lord, pray for a soul that will grow (:

here's some pictures of me and my sis zilian-ing! (:

me(:

again(:

and again =p

mei and i! =D

tadaa! me again! xp

and my stubborn lil' sis (:

okay, i'm getting boring =x

but i just decided to say..

how much i really just love her (:

i'm in a lost.
why does emotional wreckage ever happens?
oh Lord tell me why..
let me pray for her God.

sometimes i'll just need you to be by my side.
to spend silent times together
hold me when my tears fall
and cheer me with your beautiful smile (:

i miss you

loves, mo

yay! =D

2008-02-06T14:17:00.000+08:00

WHOO~! =D
i feel satisfied today!
packed and cleaned my my room, vacuum-ed, mopped, wiped, washed the toilet bowl, sink and the flooring. haha!!
ooh!! and i changed my bedspread and set up my telescope, like finally!
hahah.

here's a short footage of my room now (:

ooh.! i haven done my lit and hist essay yet. =x
kick my ass please.
i'm off!!

loves, mo

i miss you

RANDOMNESS

2008-02-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

i wonder:
am i irritating?
am i not nice to talk to?
am i detestable?
am i totally insignificant?
am i doing what i want?
am i doing what i'm supposed to?
am i who i am?
am i fulfilling my role in Your plan?
am i doing anyone proud?
am i being appreciated?
am i, me?
am i yours?
am i Yours?
am i fit?

can i?

momomo((:

2008-02-05T15:56:00.000+08:00

What Michelle Ong Jun Min Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

whoo(:
met cheryl((:
rapped as usual.
just wanna say, hon though we almost always talk bout the same stuff i still feel refreshed somehow or another everytime!
haha.
i really appreciate you! =D

shopped(:
but for korkor -.-
that piggy.
hope it suits him anyways.

thanks Marcus for giving me the wake up call despite being sick(:
go see doc luh!
or else IKILLYOU!
wahahhahaha!!
take care of yourself yeah.
you always tend to over assert yourself.
tsk tsk...

hahha.
asked sweets to wake me up.
probably he did but i wouldn't know.
cos my room had no reception until my alarm rang and i put it to a place where's there's reception. that how Marcus' line managed to pass through.
LOL.

anyway, i now owe one lit and hist essay. and one econs CS.
so,
TOODLES!

loves, mo

you are my brightest star(:

(:

2008-01-31T15:36:00.000+08:00

i'm finally meeting him tomorrow!!
=D happiness. ((:

missed loads.

to my-one-and-only-hon-CTJY,
i MISSED YOU like crazy too!!!
meet meet meet up soon!!
loves!

He is constantly working in ways we cannot see.
Hallelujah

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

2008-01-30T15:53:00.000+08:00

started off the day crappily.
gastric again. haunt me for the entire day.
but heck man.

went for fine dining at Morton's(:
thanks cheryl hon for the best recommendation! =D
WOOH!
i'm sooooooo in LOVE with the hot chocolate cake!
ILOVEIT!
WOOH~!
had chardonnay too (:
food and ambience was superb as hon promised.
i think this was the best birthday mum ever had!
haha =D
korkor gave her a handbag from Bonia,
i gave her another top from TOPSHOP,
and meimei gave her a best present of being guaiguai (:
loves the way it is now! =D

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY MUM!
HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY MUM&DAD (:

now for the pics!

on the way to fetch dad:

mei

kor

mei&I

me(:

Morton's (:

can you feel Morton's? (:

dad&mom

kor&i

kor&mei

me again (:

mei&i

again(:

mom&mei

me&mum

E3kids(:

God's blessings, truly (:

loves,

shopping craze =D

2008-01-29T16:23:00.000+08:00

WHOO~!
went shopping with mummy after school today ((:
shopped at Marina Square.
haas. i went to the shirt to my size (:
and bought another shirt that mummy picked herself.
it was the same price anyways -.- LOL!

haha.
anyways, this was the amount of shopping i did in 4 hours =D

haha. not alot but still i'm satisfied! =DD
let's see.
i bought a long knitted top from G2000; the exchanged top from TOPSHOP; a bag from e-Zine (i think); earrings and necklace from Diva; and accompanied mummy to shop for her clothes too (:
then we went to Anderson's ice-cream for tea (:
i had OREO CHEESECAKE!!! it's the SEX man i tell you.
I LOVE OREO CHEESECAKE!! =D

hahas. headed home after that
hit the snooze button until i woke up at 7 plus.
then the both of us went to GV-10's LJS for dinner!
=D finally, CHEESE!! xD
creamiest sex ever! loves!

haha. then went to John Little to do more shopping until they closed!
wahahhahaha.
then fetched mei home.

i love today! =D
rather, it's yesterday already -.-"

anyway, there's going to be lit remedials tomorrow.
sian,
fine dining at 6.
means i would have to bathe in school.
no heater + wear until so glam walk out to the carpark.
quite dots eh.
and and and, i'm in extra lit remedial cos i'm weak

and i'm still owing one more econs essay.
FREAK.
i'm going to hate tomorrow,
rather, later -.-"

better go off now.
bye ):

missing you

loves, mo

>.<

2008-01-27T03:46:00.000+08:00

she tried it after all (:
said it didn't fit her though ):
asked me to change it to my size and wear it myself.
hais. now, what should i get for her then? )):

finally singing tomorrow!
although i'm still having cough i'm still going try this week!
Glory to be God's! (:

hope fades as
reminiscence grows

loves, mo

FREAKit

2008-01-27T03:26:00.000+08:00

went out with cheryl yesterday!(:
loves it and loves her man!
miss those times when days are carefree with her.
freak A's.
idiot.
never man looking forward to irfan kor's treat to cruise with cheryl and his girlfriend on 2009 still(:
met irfan after cheryl accompanied me to buy a pair of new skinnys and clothe hunt for my mum.
got her something apt to wear for Morton's (:
went for fish and co. at wheelock place for dinner with them.
went home late.
kena trashed by mum and dad.
freakit.

BAH!
she did not seem to like or appreciate the top i got her from TOPSHOP at all.
guess i just totally wasted my 90+ odd bucks.
FREAK IT man.
disappointed ):
HATEITWHENIT'SLIKETHIS.

let me allocate my time myself ok?
quit bugging me.
if you don't appreciate my gift, at least respect me by allowing me to do things my way.
i know how to.
alright?

)):

i'm just disappointed.
FREAKit.

FREAKINGLYloves
by retardedFREAK, mo

bad mood day ):<

2008-01-25T09:17:00.000+08:00

today is the release of o'levels result.
Cheryl sounded quite sad )):
felt that hard pinch in my heart.
felt so bad that i couldn't be there for her ))):
i hate my GASTRIC!

):

didn't go to school today.
gastric sucks.
he didn't reply me neither.
that feeling Sucks.
gastric plus missing him
plus plus kor most prob getting car later and i can't drive
plus plus plus couldn't be there for Cheryl when she's unhappy
it all SUCKS!

okay, i'm in a fucking bad mood now.
i know.
shan't type anymore lest all the unseen and unheard to spill out.

do you know that
i miss you
and do you? ):

I wanna be with you

f-lovingly,mo

You made me brave (:

2008-01-24T15:07:00.000+08:00

had scope today(:
just a small tear in my intestine.
meaning, i'm more or less still HEALTHY!
Hallelujah!

woke up in the midst of the operation though.
cried and struggled =x
scared Dr. Lim so much that he asked if i still wanted to continue.
i wouldn't want to drink another two litres of yucky fluid again.
plus, it hurts like crap can.
haha
but still, i'm just glad that things are fine (:

i got mc for tomorrow too.
suppose to moniter my own condition for tomorrow i guess.
would be a perfect day to complete all the assignments undone!
otherwise i would have to prepare to get a withdrawal form i guess =x

darn.
missed drama today.
was so looking forward to it.
hope you guys had fun! =D

loves drama
loves God
loves you

&

i miss you ):

loves, mo(:

Grace and Mercy (:

2008-01-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

went to TTSH yestrday.
doing another scope today(:
wish me luck!

received this mail from alinia(i miss her!)
**************************************
donno about you guys, and believing chain mail stuff, but i believe if we send this out in faith, it could do stuff we'd never imagine.. yeah? like encourage someone or comfort someone..

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

This is beautiful! Try not to cry.

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?'

The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'

Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?'

The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through hi s thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair ?' the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will he lp some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending m ost of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight wh en Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't al lowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

(Let's see Satan stop this one.) Take 60 seconds and repos t this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves 'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

Email this.
Title : This is beautiful ! Try not to cry.

Send this to 10 people in 2 minutes and you will feel the Holy Spirit brightening your life in just an hour .
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sweet isn't it?
i'm SOOO in love with God (:

Dwell in Your house

God Bless All!!

i might still be healthy after all (:

i miss you

Loves,
mo

gasps for life

2008-01-23T01:19:00.000+08:00

have you ever really met fear in your life?

to reach a point of despondence

where it seems that nothing around seems to help?

i just did.

winter was sweet..

it seemed like she knows everything

she had been so obedient

(: cheered me up by playing fetch and licking away all my fears that flowed upon that ugly face.

i love her so

even though she's naughty

mum came in just now

and i broke down.

i'd like keep it confidential though it's about me(:

Lover of my soul

brave

i don't need anything

i'm not healthy...
one day i''ll meet You face to face in Your Kingdom.
and i'll see hear and taste.
and one day, i pray, i will see you at my Lord's kingdom too(:
haa.. how much more pessismestic can i be?

loves, mo

pissed, disapoointment

2008-01-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

if i could i would go have fun everyday

if i could i would go drinking everyday

if i could i would go smoking everyday

and live life like there's no tomorrow

but it was because of your expectations

because of all that you want out from me

all that you wanted to achieve

that i was made to choose this path

i'm devastated

i'm living in pieces of my life that i thought i had left long ago

and still i'm not being appreciated for all the efforts.

i'm so cheez~ed with life. FO

cherishing all moments

2008-01-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

gastric's acting up again.

tsk tsk. what can i say or do?

just tahan and don't let anyone worry for me(:

live each day with smiles such that they would wash all worries away.

go through each day bravely such that i won't regret.

for God me a miraculous life.

beautiful family and friends.

so i'd just like to spend every moment with them happily.

=D loves all!

met up with Cheryl again today!

wooh! missed her sooo!!

and had fantastic subway with my dearest hon today!

finally had good subway.

haha.

and and and we watch AVP2!

well, everyshow is nice as long as you watch it with the right person ((:

love ya hon!

anyway, i still owe 5 essays =x

gotta to chiong them now.

bye peeps!

LOVES!

carefree=D

2008-01-20T03:06:00.000+08:00

things that sets me back thinking
gazed upon the skies
a beautiful portrait
of You, telling me
that life might seem to be
a path of vagueness
but i must be strong so,
else be drown by un-
truths.
   That
   would
   kill
   my
   Spirit.
So i'll just walk by faith.

haha. brought winter to the opposite streets today. i think she is soo popular with the people there luh! so much so that i even got a free packet of ice for her! haa. then i brought her to the grooming shop where she found her very own brother there! Halloween! =D same date of birth bought from the same company. so lucky!! and i think i found the best rates for groooming there so far! only 4o bucks for full grooming! that lucky girl! =D loves her (:

anyway, i'm healthy from the checks so far(: though i still have all the gastric pain and anaemia i'm free and restricted to nothing no more! =D whee~! haha. had liquor directly the next day after my scan anyways, who cares? hahah!!! woohoo!

LOVES!

your ultimate ignorance ):

ct scan

2008-01-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

did my first CT scan today.
saw this 4 aunties who came after me keep complaining that it's taking so long.
so the nurse had no choice but allow them to scan first.
tsk tsk, so shi tai can.
lol.
anyway, i was required to change into this gown.
then i was serve these 3 yucky cupfuls of pinkish barium liquid.
i almost bleeched.
fortunately i did not, or i'd have to re-drink them
YUCKS!!
then i had to had this needle sticking out from the back of my palm such that the radiographer would be able to inject colour dye into my body during the scan.
the first poke was like OUCH! but when the nurse injected water in it was WORSE.
my vein BROKE.
couldn't withstand the water pressure. =.=
so i had to re-do it again on the other hand.
the next thing was, i was already freezing in the scan-room.

the radiographer told me that the had to maintain the coolness because they worry that the super duper exepensive machine will over-heat. and of course i shan't disclose how ex- it is.
lol.

anyway, i'm meeting Cheryl again tomorrow! =D
she like my moral booster or something.
hehhe.
cos i realise i meet her almost everytime before i go TTSH.
hahaha.
tomorrow as well =p

going back to OPSS to kueh shio at the CCA orientation.
wahahhahah.
eagerness.
lol!

it was your presence that i felt today that made me brave.
*-.i simply live for You.-*

sentiments

2008-01-01T02:08:00.000+08:00

You will give me the courage i never had
for You are forever faithful
You are strongest when i'm weak
Lord, lead me through it all.
Let me rest under Your wings, my refuge.

time just flew us by

2007-12-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

time really flies.
like the proverb says, time and tide waits for no man.
it's true.
CYFcamp ended, cambodge zoomed past and chalet pratically just passed me by.
now, school's going to start soon and i haven't even submitted anything!
dies.

anyway, i really wanna apologise to the beloveds who went to chalet.
sorry for going MIA suddenly.
i that day really bth and went sort of outta my mind.
so i need a short time out..
so sorry to worry you guys.
i love you alot!! ((:

WHOO!!
it's like tomorrow is cheryl's hon birthday luh!!
so fast! can't wait!!

sadly, )): tomorrow is time to go to Tan Tock Seng again.
now everyone wants me to do the scope..
have to schedule it with Dr Lim W.C tomorrow..
please pray for me my loves.
i'm really afraid actually..
that's why i've been delaying it.
pray ya,,? i would need it.
the courage you know? (:

anyway, let's not dampen the christmas spirit though the festive had just pass us by ((:
the LOOONG awaited CYFcamp07 video is out!!
WOOHOOO!!
haha
[p.s. i look really fat =.= lol!]

wanted to share the song "call upon" by CHC but just can't seem to find it.
sorry guys!

loves!

WB! =D

2007-12-21T05:37:00.000+08:00

woooh~!
went wakeboarding on monday.
i tell you it's damn fun can!
but my muscles is aching like crap now.
it was still alright yesterday luh!!
grrr..
hahas. here's some photos (:

the wonderful people who made up our team that day

afiq.sak.gerald

amanda.sling

the pros of the day
=D

afiq

sling

hahah. and myself here =p

wooh! wakeboarding rocks!
*-addiction-*
lol

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went out with cheryl yesterday(:
always have the best of all times with her!!
hahahas.
but there was this bunch of spoilers.
kept checking us out.
so freaking irritating.
kept walking up and down behind us.
then shout aloud "get number luh!" to one another.
go die.
so i told cheryl i'll alight at yck with her.
when we were alighting they kept shouting the opic motto.
was wearing the ocip shirt.
so they shouted "the light we give! the light we give!"
may God bless your screwed little minds -.-

LOL.
hon i miss and love ya!
ahahah (:

the potter's hand

hair cut -again

2007-12-18T01:29:00.000+08:00

went to cut my hair )=
mum wanted me too.
said my hair was too messy. -.-
now it's thin and short. =(

here's before and after.

before

after

lol.
anyway, i went shopping! =D
WHOO!!
bought 2 pairs of shoes.
one pumps and one heels.
wahahhahaha.
Rocks like this *rocks her entire torso*
ROFLOL
okay. -.- lame.
hahaha

anyway, cheryl hon i hope you're okay!!
take care okay sweets!!
LOVES!!!

bonafide me

2007-12-15T16:20:00.000+08:00

oh Lord.
the days are getting tougher as they pass.
wrong people, wrong time.
wrong attitude.
put it in short.
my attitude sucks.

i really want to make a sincere apology to many beloved people out there..
especially to my beloved sweet and ever forgiving cheryl hon.
i'm so sorry winter took up soo much of my time when i promise to spend the hols with you. )=
thanks for being soo understanding.
i love you hon!!
and also to my best friend marcus.
sorry for always forgetting to return your calls.
to all, for being so absent-minded and short tempered =x
and especially to God as well,
Father, re-ignite that powerful flame once more Lord.
all to You (:

Fall in this Place

Verse1
Take me to the place lord
Where there’s nothing else but me and you
Longing for your presence
I know that you are calling me to you

Pre chorus
Here i stand
And long for your embrace
Nothing else
Could ever take your place

Chorus
Come holy spirit
Fall in this place
I need more and more of you
Fill me again with the power of your spirit
Lord i’m crying out for
More and more of you

Bridge
Lord i’m crying out for
More and more of you (oh)

i realise my temper is especially bad when i'm irritated.
i don't even realise that i raise my voice so often.
so sorry to everyone!!

LOVES to all!! =D
mo (:

staying up!

2007-12-14T20:16:00.000+08:00

yep.kinda miraculous to see me posting so late.
and i'm doing this all for winter!
she seems kinda sick so i'm staying up to accompany her (:
she was snozing at my lap and now drooling on my toes i think -.-
haha. anyways, she's so adorable when she's sleeping!
ah!!
LOVES!!!

was soo afraid that i might lose you

Winter(:

2007-12-14T06:35:00.000+08:00

i think i'm like a proud mum now -.-
hahha
i'm going to show off winter now.
like WTH right!
hahahha.
whatever luh!
here's winter! (:

sleepy darling (:

and here's my room! (:

woots!

every season

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and was to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring

yes. whenever i look around myself..
everything around me.
i smile to myself..
because i'm constantly marvelled by the wonders you created.
everyday..
every smile..
every word heard..
every sentence spoke..
it's a wonder.
it's the power of your love that created life so beautiful.
that i may have a smile upon my face everyday (:

Create Yours @ NackVision

loves,
mo

Greatest Love one can ever find

2007-12-12T15:16:00.000+08:00

hahaha. saw something interesting from ah zeh's blog:

Lets101 - free dating

haas.
anyway zeh!
if you see this, please know that i REALLY REALLY MISS YOU!
haven seen nor spoke to you in ages!
hope to see you soon!

this song says it all...
why i love him so much...
How deep the Father's Love for us

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the man upon a cross
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished

I will nost boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

because he first loved me before i even knew him..

how many would be true?

2007-12-12T06:59:00.000+08:00

i just got a super random thought.
if i were to die how many would be truly grieving?
i know this sounds weird but i think that
say i have a 100 friends and prolly only 25 of them would be affected?

eh... i don't know.
told ya it's random.
i doubt i have soo many friends anyway.
WAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
XD

toodles! (:
loves,
mo.

Lead me to the cross

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart